Wow, it seems like the next wave of the baby boom is about to hit. A couple of close friends are pregnant and several of the moms in our original parent-infant group are pregnant with baby #2...that makes about half of us pregnant again.

So I'm feeling a little societal pressure. Not from anyone in particular--not my folks or Roland's, not Roland--just in general. Don't I want another baby? Now that you have one child, you really should have another. Isn't it time to add another member to the family? It would be so nice for S to have a brother or sister....

And with my 'advanced maternal age', you'd think that I'd be the first on the block to be pregnant again!

But I don't know. I don't know if I could go through those early baby days again...the sleep deprivation nearly killed me (I'm not exaggerating). And I never really had that "I must have a baby" urge in the first place. I've always loved children but from the work I did, I knew about the realities of parenting as well.

When I think about our lifestyle and all the things we want to be able to do in the future, it would be more feasible to have one child. Not that having children should be a decision made around convenience.

It's been so challenging to finally get to a point where our family of three is comfortable and settled. It's just hard to fathom how my little world would be turned upside down again if we had another baby. Not sure if I'm ready for that.